I wish ....

I wish I wasn't so concerned with how other people view me.
I wish that I didn't want to be liked by other people so much.
I wish that when someone I look up to and really want to like me, didn't exactly act like they even sort of liked me, that it didn't bother so much.
Sometimes I wish I could just sort of vanish. But even if I did, no one would really notice anyway.
I wish I could change a lot about myself .... and it seems that no matter how hard I try, the old ways, the things I try to change just get harder and harder and harder to change; making me feel like there is no hope that I will ever change.