Went in for the monthly visit today at 29 weeks 3 days.
Weight gain: 12 pounds
BP: 90/50 (she asked me if I had been drinking enough fluids becuase it was so low)
Baby's HB: 150's
And that was that.
Now I start every 2 week visits. I'm so ready to be on the 2-week cycle ... it means I'm getting closer and that is exciting news for me ;-)
I will get the 3 hour glucose test next Friday. They wished I would get it done sooner, but at the same time the midwife said it would be okay to wait that long since she's sure I'll pass it anyway. But htey would like me to limit carbs in the meantime and increase protein, which is fine with me honestly. No biggie really.
Baby is breech still, but no biggie. They won't care until 36 weeks and even then, not really care until 38 weeks. My second flipped late, so I'm not worried (but okay, I'm a tiny bit worried since I know I'm high risk for preterm labor).
And that about sums up my visit today.
So for the month of October, I have weekly PT visits (all on Wednesday), I will have 2 OB appointments, I need to make a dentist appointment for myself, we have my 5 year olds fine arts on Mondays, Ballet and Awana on Thursdays .... yeah, I get the feeling I'll be plenty busy for the next 4 weeks. So here's hoping the month of October just flies by. I would like to blink and be at Halloween really. That would be my ideal scenario ;-)
I have officially started Christmas shopping (one person is all the way done and several started). Okay, not much really, but enough that I'm excited about it LOL!
I'm also planning a big party for the end of October. I haven't done hardly anything for it yet :-(
I think tomorrow I may have to come on here and type out a huge to-do list. I have plenty to do for this party, plenty to try to do for Christmas (I would like to be done early this year), just general fall things around the house (i.e. summer things out of closets/dressers), I want to start getting things ready for baby (as a just in case), and then I would like to squeeze in some fun things for myself if at all possible.
But I am feeling tired just thinking about it all LOL!!! Oh well .. I will get through this month. Hopefully it will fly by. And before I know it, it will be November, and how exciting will November be? My dh will be done with his fall job, I believe the gp's will be leaving for Florida, Christmas will be out of the way, and life in general will settle down for a few weeks as we all wait baby's arrival.
Thursday, September 29, 2005
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Finally ...
We went to the hospital tonight to visit the labor and delivery department.
It's good enough. There is nothing really wrong with the hospital. It's pretty standard. I do think, however, the last hospital I used was a bit nicer hoenstly. I will say this hospital can accomodate sick babies, whereas the last hospital really didn't have any nicu. Not that we've needed one yet, and I don't plan to have to need one this time.
I don't know ... the hospital is nice enough. It works, it even does more than work. But even my dh said that the other hospital was just a tad bit nicer to use. Oh well. It will work. My midwives even have a special room there just for their patients. Of course, it's only one room, so if someone is there, I don't get it. But it's a room that's for labor, deliver, recovery and post partum. That means no switching rooms after having the baby and it's private. I would say though, I have slim chances of getting that room ROFL! But I'll dream about getting that one anyway!
There are 6 other private rooms available (for an extra fee on top of insurance) but I'm sure we won't be paying for that though. The rest of the rooms are semi-private ... 2 moms per room. They will though fill up each room with one patient before doubling any rooms up though. I am just assuming December is a busy time to have babies though, so I will probably plan on sharing. But we'll see. Dh and I will discuss it ... it would be advantageous to have him able to spend the night with me that first night if this labor goes like the other ones!
Anyway, at least we went and saw it. That was a big load off my shoulders. I was terrified my first trip into l&d would be to deliver! But it's not. And now my dh knows where the hospital is (although I went to the hospital to get my ultrasound done, he had not been there yet). So I guess that's good.
I'm still really in a bad mood hoenstly. I'm feeling very sore. Very tired. Very crabby. I have had to excuse myself from fun activities because I just can't walk a lot anymore. It just stinks becuase I still have 3 months to go. I can't imagine how I will feel in 2 months with how I am feeling right now. Tomorrow I go to the PT. I have about 5 new issues to bring up with her. I'm hoping that there is relief possible for all of those issues.
On a positive note, my dh's mom and stepdad were in town for a few days. It was sooo nice to see them, but certainly not nearly a long enough visit at all :-( Of course, I don't think the visit could ever be long enough. But we had a lot of fun with them, even if it was a short trip. We did do a lot of fun things ... well, I also did a fair amount of watching them have fun as I sat. Grrrr ... oh well. That's life as they say. But they left today (they came in Friday). We already miss them of course :-(
As far as updates: still no appraisal! Can you believe that? OMG! I hope they don't have to pay full price for it .. I can't believe they still haven't recieved it. That's just wrong. Wish I had a job where I could turn things in over a week late and get away with it.
Okay ... enough babbling for today.
It's good enough. There is nothing really wrong with the hospital. It's pretty standard. I do think, however, the last hospital I used was a bit nicer hoenstly. I will say this hospital can accomodate sick babies, whereas the last hospital really didn't have any nicu. Not that we've needed one yet, and I don't plan to have to need one this time.
I don't know ... the hospital is nice enough. It works, it even does more than work. But even my dh said that the other hospital was just a tad bit nicer to use. Oh well. It will work. My midwives even have a special room there just for their patients. Of course, it's only one room, so if someone is there, I don't get it. But it's a room that's for labor, deliver, recovery and post partum. That means no switching rooms after having the baby and it's private. I would say though, I have slim chances of getting that room ROFL! But I'll dream about getting that one anyway!
There are 6 other private rooms available (for an extra fee on top of insurance) but I'm sure we won't be paying for that though. The rest of the rooms are semi-private ... 2 moms per room. They will though fill up each room with one patient before doubling any rooms up though. I am just assuming December is a busy time to have babies though, so I will probably plan on sharing. But we'll see. Dh and I will discuss it ... it would be advantageous to have him able to spend the night with me that first night if this labor goes like the other ones!
Anyway, at least we went and saw it. That was a big load off my shoulders. I was terrified my first trip into l&d would be to deliver! But it's not. And now my dh knows where the hospital is (although I went to the hospital to get my ultrasound done, he had not been there yet). So I guess that's good.
I'm still really in a bad mood hoenstly. I'm feeling very sore. Very tired. Very crabby. I have had to excuse myself from fun activities because I just can't walk a lot anymore. It just stinks becuase I still have 3 months to go. I can't imagine how I will feel in 2 months with how I am feeling right now. Tomorrow I go to the PT. I have about 5 new issues to bring up with her. I'm hoping that there is relief possible for all of those issues.
On a positive note, my dh's mom and stepdad were in town for a few days. It was sooo nice to see them, but certainly not nearly a long enough visit at all :-( Of course, I don't think the visit could ever be long enough. But we had a lot of fun with them, even if it was a short trip. We did do a lot of fun things ... well, I also did a fair amount of watching them have fun as I sat. Grrrr ... oh well. That's life as they say. But they left today (they came in Friday). We already miss them of course :-(
As far as updates: still no appraisal! Can you believe that? OMG! I hope they don't have to pay full price for it .. I can't believe they still haven't recieved it. That's just wrong. Wish I had a job where I could turn things in over a week late and get away with it.
Okay ... enough babbling for today.
Friday, September 23, 2005
I'm so freaking mad right now.
I failed that stupid 1 hour glucose test.
They are making me take the three hour. I told htem I didn't want to. The one hour made me feel like shit as it was. No way do I want to take the freaking 3 hour. I have to. Or they won't keep me as a patient @@ I told htem they could even just pretend I took the 3 hour and failed it. I would go on whatever diet they told me too, just don't make me take the 3 hour. Nope. Nope. "The one hour is not a diagnostic test. We can not make any assumptions based on it." Then I asked if the levels were really elevated or just slightly elevated. They wouldn't tell me at first @@ She said it didn't matter, it only matter they were elevated. I said I didn't care, I wanted to know how elevated it was for my own personal information. She sounded annoyed and told me it was only slightly over. Whatever. Geeze. Maybe I do want to switch doctors. I expect to be told my results, whether I was over by one point or 200 points and they are required to tell me the first time I ask last I checked. I'm paying them, they are not paying me.
Whatever. Now I'm crabby and I'm pissed. @@ This is such a PITA. Hell I almost threw up on Wednesday when I took the one hour. I really had wished that I had now. I wonder if I'll throw up during the 3 hour. This sucks. I am so freaking mad. Why can't they let me skip it. I'm willing to pretend I took it and failed. But noooo ... and if I was only slightly over and I really don't want to take the test (and yes, I'm extremely aware of the risks) then why are they making me take it? And if the freaking one hour test can't be used for diagnostic purposes why the hell did I have to take it in the first place? It's all such a joke right now. And I'm pissed off and mad. And I do NOT want to take the 3 hour. I just know, I'm going to feel like crap again for another entire day. Whatever.
I failed that stupid 1 hour glucose test.
They are making me take the three hour. I told htem I didn't want to. The one hour made me feel like shit as it was. No way do I want to take the freaking 3 hour. I have to. Or they won't keep me as a patient @@ I told htem they could even just pretend I took the 3 hour and failed it. I would go on whatever diet they told me too, just don't make me take the 3 hour. Nope. Nope. "The one hour is not a diagnostic test. We can not make any assumptions based on it." Then I asked if the levels were really elevated or just slightly elevated. They wouldn't tell me at first @@ She said it didn't matter, it only matter they were elevated. I said I didn't care, I wanted to know how elevated it was for my own personal information. She sounded annoyed and told me it was only slightly over. Whatever. Geeze. Maybe I do want to switch doctors. I expect to be told my results, whether I was over by one point or 200 points and they are required to tell me the first time I ask last I checked. I'm paying them, they are not paying me.
Whatever. Now I'm crabby and I'm pissed. @@ This is such a PITA. Hell I almost threw up on Wednesday when I took the one hour. I really had wished that I had now. I wonder if I'll throw up during the 3 hour. This sucks. I am so freaking mad. Why can't they let me skip it. I'm willing to pretend I took it and failed. But noooo ... and if I was only slightly over and I really don't want to take the test (and yes, I'm extremely aware of the risks) then why are they making me take it? And if the freaking one hour test can't be used for diagnostic purposes why the hell did I have to take it in the first place? It's all such a joke right now. And I'm pissed off and mad. And I do NOT want to take the 3 hour. I just know, I'm going to feel like crap again for another entire day. Whatever.
Grrr ...
I'm so freaking mad right now.
I failed that stupid 1 hour glucose test.
They are making me take the three hour. I told htem I didn't want to. The one hour made me feel like shit as it was. No way do I want to take the freaking 3 hour. I have to. Or they won't keep me as a patient @@ I told htem they could even just pretend I took the 3 hour and failed it. I would go on whatever diet they told me too, just don't make me take the 3 hour. Nope. Nope. "The one hour is not a diagnostic test. We can not make any assumptions based on it." Then I asked if the levels were really elevated or just slightly elevated. They wouldn't tell me at first @@ She said it didn't matter, it only matter they were elevated. I said I didn't care, I wanted to know how elevated it was for my own personal information. She sounded annoyed and told me it was only slightly over. Whatever. Geeze. Maybe I do want to switch doctors. I expect to be told my results, whether I was over by one point or 200 points and they are required to tell me the first time I ask last I checked. I'm paying them, they are not paying me.
Whatever. Now I'm crabby and I'm pissed. @@ This is such a PITA. Hell I almost threw up on Wednesday when I took the one hour. I really had wished that I had now. I wonder if I'll throw up during the 3 hour. This sucks. I am so freaking mad. Why can't they let me skip it. I'm willing to pretend I took it and failed. But noooo ... and if I was only slightly over and I really don't want to take the test (and yes, I'm extremely aware of the risks) then why are they making me take it? And if the freaking one hour test can't be used for diagnostic purposes why the hell did I have to take it in the first place? It's all such a joke right now. And I pissed off and mad. And I do NOT want to take the 3 hour. I just know, I'm going to feel like crap again for another entire day. Whatever.
I failed that stupid 1 hour glucose test.
They are making me take the three hour. I told htem I didn't want to. The one hour made me feel like shit as it was. No way do I want to take the freaking 3 hour. I have to. Or they won't keep me as a patient @@ I told htem they could even just pretend I took the 3 hour and failed it. I would go on whatever diet they told me too, just don't make me take the 3 hour. Nope. Nope. "The one hour is not a diagnostic test. We can not make any assumptions based on it." Then I asked if the levels were really elevated or just slightly elevated. They wouldn't tell me at first @@ She said it didn't matter, it only matter they were elevated. I said I didn't care, I wanted to know how elevated it was for my own personal information. She sounded annoyed and told me it was only slightly over. Whatever. Geeze. Maybe I do want to switch doctors. I expect to be told my results, whether I was over by one point or 200 points and they are required to tell me the first time I ask last I checked. I'm paying them, they are not paying me.
Whatever. Now I'm crabby and I'm pissed. @@ This is such a PITA. Hell I almost threw up on Wednesday when I took the one hour. I really had wished that I had now. I wonder if I'll throw up during the 3 hour. This sucks. I am so freaking mad. Why can't they let me skip it. I'm willing to pretend I took it and failed. But noooo ... and if I was only slightly over and I really don't want to take the test (and yes, I'm extremely aware of the risks) then why are they making me take it? And if the freaking one hour test can't be used for diagnostic purposes why the hell did I have to take it in the first place? It's all such a joke right now. And I pissed off and mad. And I do NOT want to take the 3 hour. I just know, I'm going to feel like crap again for another entire day. Whatever.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Bad day ....
Today everything hurts. My back, my hip, my leg. It's all sore. I feel like I ran a marathon or something. Of course, I have not @@ I just feel so worn out, so tired, so frustrated with it all. I wish I could get relief somehow, but I don't know how. It's just been a bad day overall. I tried very hard not to be crabby towards anyone, and I actually did a pretty good job. I did snap at dh later tonight, but I quickly apologized and I felt bad :-( I just can't believe I have 12-14 more weeks to go. I have never felt this way so early in pregnancy. It's hard to imagine ... 3 months! I have 3 months to go. I feel like I did for the last few weeks of my other two, and then I didn't even feel quite this bad ... uncomfortable yes, but not so much pain. I know I can survive this. I can get through it. I am truly excited about this baby coming into our family, and I do not wish him/her to come early. But yet, this pregnancy is weighing so heavily on me.
Okay ... just had to get that all out. Hopefully I will get some great sleep tonight and tomorrow will be a better day.
Okay ... just had to get that all out. Hopefully I will get some great sleep tonight and tomorrow will be a better day.
Monday, September 19, 2005
No news
Well, no news yet. It's Monday night, but company has decided to stay. And no opportunity has come up.
Regardless, life will be okay. I'm not worried anymore. Mainly becuase I think that nothing will happen soon. And becuase even if something does happen soon, then I know that everything will end up being okay anyway. So no need to worry. The unknown is scary for me, but I just have to remember and remind myself that the unknown does not equal bad things. It's a lesson I'm trying to learn. I hope one day I am able to master that thought. For now though, the unknown will probably continue to send me into a tailspin of worry, anxiety and doubt.
On the other front, I am now 28 weeks pregnant. The end is looming no more than 14 weeks away. Although somedays I complain about it all and feel like there is no way I can survive another 14 weeks, I can and I will. I am getting more and more Braxton-Hicks contractions. My back is achy. I can't sleep at night.
But, I am so excited about this baby arriving. I can not wait to meet him/her. Surprisingly enough for me, I don't feel a ton of anxiety about bringing anothe member into our family. (Of course I have high anxiety for about 1 million and one other things instead LOL!).
I am hoping now that we are about to start fall, things will start to go very quickly. Now that we are schooling, my parents fall festival has started, then it will be Halloween, then Thanksgiving, and before we know it ... December will be here! The time has got to start flying though. It's been dragging ever since April and I'm ready to feel like it's all just whizzing by me! LOL!
Regardless, life will be okay. I'm not worried anymore. Mainly becuase I think that nothing will happen soon. And becuase even if something does happen soon, then I know that everything will end up being okay anyway. So no need to worry. The unknown is scary for me, but I just have to remember and remind myself that the unknown does not equal bad things. It's a lesson I'm trying to learn. I hope one day I am able to master that thought. For now though, the unknown will probably continue to send me into a tailspin of worry, anxiety and doubt.
On the other front, I am now 28 weeks pregnant. The end is looming no more than 14 weeks away. Although somedays I complain about it all and feel like there is no way I can survive another 14 weeks, I can and I will. I am getting more and more Braxton-Hicks contractions. My back is achy. I can't sleep at night.
But, I am so excited about this baby arriving. I can not wait to meet him/her. Surprisingly enough for me, I don't feel a ton of anxiety about bringing anothe member into our family. (Of course I have high anxiety for about 1 million and one other things instead LOL!).
I am hoping now that we are about to start fall, things will start to go very quickly. Now that we are schooling, my parents fall festival has started, then it will be Halloween, then Thanksgiving, and before we know it ... December will be here! The time has got to start flying though. It's been dragging ever since April and I'm ready to feel like it's all just whizzing by me! LOL!
Did it again ...
Tonight I watched Life Is Beautiful.
I admit, I had no clue what it was about. I rented it because it won the Emmy and it was supposed to be good.
I didn't read the description. Not a clue it took place during WWII.
:-(
Although much different from Schindler's List, it still got to me.
Ugh. I think maybe I should stop watching movies. It seems I either really dislike them all or they end up making me cry :-(
I admit, I had no clue what it was about. I rented it because it won the Emmy and it was supposed to be good.
I didn't read the description. Not a clue it took place during WWII.
:-(
Although much different from Schindler's List, it still got to me.
Ugh. I think maybe I should stop watching movies. It seems I either really dislike them all or they end up making me cry :-(
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Responding to comments ....
I have not yet seen either Hotel Rwanda or The Passion. Thinking I should wait until the hormones are not going crazy to even attempt them both (although I am secretly thinking about not watching The Passion at all).
The hardest part of the movie for me was when he was upset he didn't help more people. :-( I wanted to jump into the movie, hug him and try to tell him that he made a difference doing what he did do and that was such an amazing thing .... if we all just helped some. Imagine what a difference in the world overall!
The hardest part of the movie for me was when he was upset he didn't help more people. :-( I wanted to jump into the movie, hug him and try to tell him that he made a difference doing what he did do and that was such an amazing thing .... if we all just helped some. Imagine what a difference in the world overall!
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
:-(
I have never in my life watched Schindler's List before. Until now.
:-(
I just ... ugh. I mean, I know what happened. I studied it. But still, it was a hard movie to watch.
:-(
I just ... ugh. I mean, I know what happened. I studied it. But still, it was a hard movie to watch.
Still don't know ...
Company is here for a week visiting the gp's. Dh doens't want to ask until company is gone.
I have gathered this much information just from little things ... a change in ownership will happen, but when is unknown and the hope of the gp's is that it remains with someone in the family. One other family member is getting ready to sell where they live. Another family member might possible be selling as well. Which basically leaves those two to be the only ones who could afford to take gp's house. That's to my knowledge though ... I could be wrong.
Anyway, if I had to bet, I'd bet that one of those other relatives (specifically I think I know which one) might be the ones who will purchase the house. Dh agrees with me.
But again, there are like 2 small assumptions in there and one large assumption in there. And it's killing me to not know. And it's killing me to think we have to wait to find out. ::sigh:: I think dh should just try to catch one of the gp's and ask ASAP. Not that I think this will all take place in a week. But if the plan is for late winter, well then, I want to be prepared now. I don't want to move either 9 months pregnant or with a month old.
But who really knows ... well the gp's know. And at least one other relative knows, but that relative isn't saying anything (which I understand). And I'm thinking if that person knows ... then it involves them and I don't think the assumptions dh and I are making are all that huge after all ....
I have gathered this much information just from little things ... a change in ownership will happen, but when is unknown and the hope of the gp's is that it remains with someone in the family. One other family member is getting ready to sell where they live. Another family member might possible be selling as well. Which basically leaves those two to be the only ones who could afford to take gp's house. That's to my knowledge though ... I could be wrong.
Anyway, if I had to bet, I'd bet that one of those other relatives (specifically I think I know which one) might be the ones who will purchase the house. Dh agrees with me.
But again, there are like 2 small assumptions in there and one large assumption in there. And it's killing me to not know. And it's killing me to think we have to wait to find out. ::sigh:: I think dh should just try to catch one of the gp's and ask ASAP. Not that I think this will all take place in a week. But if the plan is for late winter, well then, I want to be prepared now. I don't want to move either 9 months pregnant or with a month old.
But who really knows ... well the gp's know. And at least one other relative knows, but that relative isn't saying anything (which I understand). And I'm thinking if that person knows ... then it involves them and I don't think the assumptions dh and I are making are all that huge after all ....
Sunday, September 11, 2005
The Unknown ... Again ...
You'd think by now that I'd be used to entering the zone of the "unknown." Nope. Still not used to it. Still hate it. It still drives me crazy to not know things. I mean one of the meanest things you can do to me is not tell me everything about something ... to just give me enough to leave me hanging.
Well, anyway, yesterday dh tells me, in a nonchalent way, the grandparents (gp) are going to have the house appraised Tuesday. Oh. Okay. He figured it was just to kind of get a feel for how things are. The gp's are kind of in a spot where there is potential for a lot of change, and selling this house and permenantly locating to Florida is one of those options. However, we've known for sometime that grandpa was not really ready to do it but grandma is. We know they will eventually want to sell this house, but well, eventually seemed so far away ...
Today, grandma and I go to a party and she mentions that the flooring in the house won't be changed (despite her telling me all summer she wanted the flooring changed) becuase they will just have to leave it for whoever buys it. And she says it like new buyers are right around the corner.
What? Buyers? No changing the flooring? Huh? Someone please tell me what is going on here!
So I come home and tell dh what grandma has said and he decides that there may be more to this appraisal taking place than he originally thought (ummm ... yeah, I could have told him that @@). So I say that I guess we better start looking for a place to move and he tells me that no, it's not. Not until we talk to the gp's about what their plans are. So I assume and mention he will be doing it soon. Nope. He's going to wait until the appraisal value comes back. Excuse me? Huh? We are waiting? My guess is that if they are that serious, there is no better time for them to put the house on the market then in October, after they head to Florida. October. That is in, what? 20 days? Ummm .. and we will wait to ask them about it? They might be selling the house that we are currently residing in and he wants to wait to ask them about it? Please, what kind of logic is that? I dont' get it.
His theory, they haven't told us they intend to sell. They haven't mentioned that they are getting it appraised to decide if it's time to sell or to hold it. They haven't told us anything, aside from there will be an appraisal and then the comment I heard today. So he thinks that even if they want to sell, it won't be soon anyway.
So, now we wait. And hopefully they say something to us. Or my dh says something to them.
Here's my thoughts:
1. I like it here, so naturally I don't want them to sell it. Besides, my dh wants to buy it and we know we can not currently afford to buy in this area. So if they wait a little longer we can (hopefully) save up enough to buy this place. Yes. They are selfish thoughts.
2. They still have a business in the area. I would think they would sell the business first, then the house. Not to mention, almost all the family is in this area. Are they quite ready to be half a country away at this point? Well, I kind of hope not honestly! LOL! See, not all my thoughts are selfish!
3. If they do sell, then I want to be out of their house prior to this house going on the market. Again, a selfish thought ... I don't want ot have to constantly clean up after the kids, I dont' want to have this house show-ready at all times of the day, I don't want to have to leave if a realtor calls and wants to come over in a half an hour. Besides, non-selfish thought, I think the house would sell faster and do better if there wasn't our clutter here as well. It will be better for them if we are not here when they want to sell it. I would still be willing to come over and clean once a week to keep the house looking well, but then they don't have to worry about crowded rooms (and both our bedroom and the kids room look too full to fully appreciate it), our things being everywhere and the possibility of the kids making messes at all times.
So that's where it stands. Dh is telling me not to worry. He will handle it. If we have to move, he promises that we will not go back to a place like where we just moved from last year. We can't stay in a spot as nice as where we currently are, but he will keep us out of a bad house. He says not to think about moving yet, because for all we know, they won't really put it on the market and then we've wasted worry for nothing (well then just ask them now so we know for sure! LOL!). Also, he said maybe we can rent the house from them. We know we can't buy it yet, but maybe we can rent it for a while and see where it leaves us.
Then he says we should look at this as an opportunity. Maybe this is our sign that it's just time for us to get our own place. We know it will be crowded here with the baby, our family and the gp's all under one roof. So maybe we need to get our place with room and be excited about that. Also we talked about how he isn't exactly completely satisfied with his current job. Maybe, and this is a HUGE maybe (even more maybe-ish then teh gp's selling the house) that he will look into getting another job ... which means we could potentially move to another area ... even another state.
Wow. That's a lot of change to take all at once. Especially with a new baby coming. I am 27 weeks tomorrow. That leaves 13 weeks until my due date. I will be honest, I will not want to move prior to that due date, and I won't want to try to move with a 4 week old either! This is why I want to know now. I want to ask them if they indeed plan to sell the house. If so, when do they plan to put it on the market? If my dh is going to take this change to look for a job, where will he look? How far away from here is his range? Out of state? Which state would he want to locate to?
All of these questions in my mind. I'm not opposed to moving. I don't want to because I love this house, I love where it is, and I hate to think that the gp's will be in Florida full time :-( I've lived with them for a year now. I'm sort of attached to them. My kids are attached to them :-( I love seeing my 3 year old and grandma sit on the couch together and have a "conversation." Sometimes my kids read to grandma. M naps with grandma. Both of them love to play with grandpa ... to tickle him, to laugh with him, to just hang out with him. If this happens all that will be lost, and it's so magical - to watch my kids get to really know their great grandparents. That's not something a lot of kids get these days. That is really what will be the hardest part of all of this :-(
Well, anyway, yesterday dh tells me, in a nonchalent way, the grandparents (gp) are going to have the house appraised Tuesday. Oh. Okay. He figured it was just to kind of get a feel for how things are. The gp's are kind of in a spot where there is potential for a lot of change, and selling this house and permenantly locating to Florida is one of those options. However, we've known for sometime that grandpa was not really ready to do it but grandma is. We know they will eventually want to sell this house, but well, eventually seemed so far away ...
Today, grandma and I go to a party and she mentions that the flooring in the house won't be changed (despite her telling me all summer she wanted the flooring changed) becuase they will just have to leave it for whoever buys it. And she says it like new buyers are right around the corner.
What? Buyers? No changing the flooring? Huh? Someone please tell me what is going on here!
So I come home and tell dh what grandma has said and he decides that there may be more to this appraisal taking place than he originally thought (ummm ... yeah, I could have told him that @@). So I say that I guess we better start looking for a place to move and he tells me that no, it's not. Not until we talk to the gp's about what their plans are. So I assume and mention he will be doing it soon. Nope. He's going to wait until the appraisal value comes back. Excuse me? Huh? We are waiting? My guess is that if they are that serious, there is no better time for them to put the house on the market then in October, after they head to Florida. October. That is in, what? 20 days? Ummm .. and we will wait to ask them about it? They might be selling the house that we are currently residing in and he wants to wait to ask them about it? Please, what kind of logic is that? I dont' get it.
His theory, they haven't told us they intend to sell. They haven't mentioned that they are getting it appraised to decide if it's time to sell or to hold it. They haven't told us anything, aside from there will be an appraisal and then the comment I heard today. So he thinks that even if they want to sell, it won't be soon anyway.
So, now we wait. And hopefully they say something to us. Or my dh says something to them.
Here's my thoughts:
1. I like it here, so naturally I don't want them to sell it. Besides, my dh wants to buy it and we know we can not currently afford to buy in this area. So if they wait a little longer we can (hopefully) save up enough to buy this place. Yes. They are selfish thoughts.
2. They still have a business in the area. I would think they would sell the business first, then the house. Not to mention, almost all the family is in this area. Are they quite ready to be half a country away at this point? Well, I kind of hope not honestly! LOL! See, not all my thoughts are selfish!
3. If they do sell, then I want to be out of their house prior to this house going on the market. Again, a selfish thought ... I don't want ot have to constantly clean up after the kids, I dont' want to have this house show-ready at all times of the day, I don't want to have to leave if a realtor calls and wants to come over in a half an hour. Besides, non-selfish thought, I think the house would sell faster and do better if there wasn't our clutter here as well. It will be better for them if we are not here when they want to sell it. I would still be willing to come over and clean once a week to keep the house looking well, but then they don't have to worry about crowded rooms (and both our bedroom and the kids room look too full to fully appreciate it), our things being everywhere and the possibility of the kids making messes at all times.
So that's where it stands. Dh is telling me not to worry. He will handle it. If we have to move, he promises that we will not go back to a place like where we just moved from last year. We can't stay in a spot as nice as where we currently are, but he will keep us out of a bad house. He says not to think about moving yet, because for all we know, they won't really put it on the market and then we've wasted worry for nothing (well then just ask them now so we know for sure! LOL!). Also, he said maybe we can rent the house from them. We know we can't buy it yet, but maybe we can rent it for a while and see where it leaves us.
Then he says we should look at this as an opportunity. Maybe this is our sign that it's just time for us to get our own place. We know it will be crowded here with the baby, our family and the gp's all under one roof. So maybe we need to get our place with room and be excited about that. Also we talked about how he isn't exactly completely satisfied with his current job. Maybe, and this is a HUGE maybe (even more maybe-ish then teh gp's selling the house) that he will look into getting another job ... which means we could potentially move to another area ... even another state.
Wow. That's a lot of change to take all at once. Especially with a new baby coming. I am 27 weeks tomorrow. That leaves 13 weeks until my due date. I will be honest, I will not want to move prior to that due date, and I won't want to try to move with a 4 week old either! This is why I want to know now. I want to ask them if they indeed plan to sell the house. If so, when do they plan to put it on the market? If my dh is going to take this change to look for a job, where will he look? How far away from here is his range? Out of state? Which state would he want to locate to?
All of these questions in my mind. I'm not opposed to moving. I don't want to because I love this house, I love where it is, and I hate to think that the gp's will be in Florida full time :-( I've lived with them for a year now. I'm sort of attached to them. My kids are attached to them :-( I love seeing my 3 year old and grandma sit on the couch together and have a "conversation." Sometimes my kids read to grandma. M naps with grandma. Both of them love to play with grandpa ... to tickle him, to laugh with him, to just hang out with him. If this happens all that will be lost, and it's so magical - to watch my kids get to really know their great grandparents. That's not something a lot of kids get these days. That is really what will be the hardest part of all of this :-(
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Stop growing!
Today my youngest turned 3. She's 3! I can't believe she is 3 years old! Where did the time go? I feel like I just gave birth to her yesterday, and now, in a blink of an eye, she is 3! I just am still amazed. And of course, not only did she turn 3 today, but over the last month she has really changed and grown a lot. The way she talks now, it just sounds older. All of a sudden she can do things "by myself" and doesn't need the same amount of help that she needed just a short time ago.
Just growing and changing right before my very eyes. And it's so bittersweet. Half of me is saying "Woo-hoo! You go girl!" and the other half wants to cry out "Stop it! Stop growing right now! You may not get any older!"
But it was a good day for her. We had a party this even ... about 18 people were here. It went well. She had fun and of course has a million and one new toys to play with =)
She is so proud that it's her birthday ... so sweet. It's been a good day ... and I haven't even shed a tear over her birthday yet!
Just growing and changing right before my very eyes. And it's so bittersweet. Half of me is saying "Woo-hoo! You go girl!" and the other half wants to cry out "Stop it! Stop growing right now! You may not get any older!"
But it was a good day for her. We had a party this even ... about 18 people were here. It went well. She had fun and of course has a million and one new toys to play with =)
She is so proud that it's her birthday ... so sweet. It's been a good day ... and I haven't even shed a tear over her birthday yet!
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Saying hi ...
Not a lot really to share at the moment honestly!
Things are going here ...
Actually, I have to say "school" is going fabulously =) My 5 year old is blowing me away. I can not believe how fast she is learning things, how quickly she absorbs them, how into her work she (usually) is. Last week she read her first book by herself. It was the Bob book number 1 - pretty simple, but she did it on her own! Today she read Bob book number 2 by herself! She is getting so good with her reading. She is flying through her reading lessons ... she is getting better at not having to sound out every single word. I'm just amazed ... just absolutely amazed by her! Math is going so well ... we have all this learning going on! My dh and I are just amazed by her and all that she can do!
Not only that, but my littlest one has changed so dramatically in the last month - the way she talks, the phrases she uses .. they sound so much more grown up lately. She is trying new things - just amazing me constantly too! And she wants to be like big sister ... yesterday morning, could barely move a mouse at all ... today, she can play very simple games! I can't beleive it! And she's so proud of herself "I won! I won!" she tells me "high five mom" she says so happily with her hand in the air waiting for me! I love it! I can't believe all of this. Somedays I feel like I'm living in a dream ...
But of course, there is always something to remind me that it's not a dream! LOL! My back is worse than it has ever been (aside from when I slipped a disc). I'm dying. Ugh. Both sides of my pelvis area are not doing well (of course, not just one side anymore @@), it hurts to bend over ... and of course bending over has to be done a million times a day ... getting clothes out of the drawers, doing laundry, doing dishes, helping the kids, picking things up, blah, blah, blah ... I know in the grand scheme it is relatively small and minor, but it's an issue none-the-less and it is affecting what I can and can't do. I feel like I need to not move to not feel pain. Dh told me to just take tylenol or something, but I hate to take medicine right now. I've taken so much this pregnancy already it feels like, that I'm afraid to take more.
I guess the good news is that so far I haven't taken medicine ... the pain is not constant and it's not very bad all the time. I can still manage with it, most of the time. A couple of times a day, I'm really wanting to take something, but if I lay down for a while, that helps enough. That and ice and just trying to think of other things! Hopefully, I can manage to keep the pain at that level and not let it get worse. I see the PT again tomorrow so we'll see what happens ...
Other than that, it's just same old around here.
Things are going here ...
Actually, I have to say "school" is going fabulously =) My 5 year old is blowing me away. I can not believe how fast she is learning things, how quickly she absorbs them, how into her work she (usually) is. Last week she read her first book by herself. It was the Bob book number 1 - pretty simple, but she did it on her own! Today she read Bob book number 2 by herself! She is getting so good with her reading. She is flying through her reading lessons ... she is getting better at not having to sound out every single word. I'm just amazed ... just absolutely amazed by her! Math is going so well ... we have all this learning going on! My dh and I are just amazed by her and all that she can do!
Not only that, but my littlest one has changed so dramatically in the last month - the way she talks, the phrases she uses .. they sound so much more grown up lately. She is trying new things - just amazing me constantly too! And she wants to be like big sister ... yesterday morning, could barely move a mouse at all ... today, she can play very simple games! I can't beleive it! And she's so proud of herself "I won! I won!" she tells me "high five mom" she says so happily with her hand in the air waiting for me! I love it! I can't believe all of this. Somedays I feel like I'm living in a dream ...
But of course, there is always something to remind me that it's not a dream! LOL! My back is worse than it has ever been (aside from when I slipped a disc). I'm dying. Ugh. Both sides of my pelvis area are not doing well (of course, not just one side anymore @@), it hurts to bend over ... and of course bending over has to be done a million times a day ... getting clothes out of the drawers, doing laundry, doing dishes, helping the kids, picking things up, blah, blah, blah ... I know in the grand scheme it is relatively small and minor, but it's an issue none-the-less and it is affecting what I can and can't do. I feel like I need to not move to not feel pain. Dh told me to just take tylenol or something, but I hate to take medicine right now. I've taken so much this pregnancy already it feels like, that I'm afraid to take more.
I guess the good news is that so far I haven't taken medicine ... the pain is not constant and it's not very bad all the time. I can still manage with it, most of the time. A couple of times a day, I'm really wanting to take something, but if I lay down for a while, that helps enough. That and ice and just trying to think of other things! Hopefully, I can manage to keep the pain at that level and not let it get worse. I see the PT again tomorrow so we'll see what happens ...
Other than that, it's just same old around here.
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